Musings of a Medico

 

As I munched the last slice of butter smeared bread

The early morning sky turned purplish red

 

The heart was as heavy as coin filled bag

Tear drenched shirt smelled like an old rag

 

 I stared at front wall and it started melting again

To figures of lifeless bodies and faces mincing in pain

 

The day didn’t guarantee time for sleep and meal

Still it guaranteed eyes filled with gratitude as I would heal

 

I picked a clean white apron and a biscuit packet

And slid the next and last meal to apron’s front pocket

 

In between highlighted abstruse words of cells, ailments and organs

I recall dreaming of stethoscope and magical healing hands

 

By blending the education intelligence, experience and fact

I act as savior and keep the string of fleeting life intact

 

I strive hard to be the God’s obedient son

By instilling love sacrifice and compassion in to profession

God

That was hell of a sleepless night

After a suffocating lonely fight.

 

I needed fresh air to ward off blues

So jumped off bed and buckled up shoes

 

As I strolled along avenue filled with fog

I got startled by hooting of a dog

 

She was beautiful furry Huskey who stared me

Her old little rug was wet with pee

 

I untied her collar and rubbed over nose

She took careful steps and came little close

 

Her eyes beamed with love as she stood

Then barked meekly and hustled into woods

 

I followed my intuition and chased her

Could only see her glowing eyes and shiny fur

 

She looked back and transformed to light worm

And vanished into starless night as body went numb

 

I felt a touch at forehead and closed my eyes

It welled up and I was ecstatic with joy

 

 

I could sense positive energies around me

It soaked up ego, stress, pain and anxiety

 

I vividly sensed the body wrapped soul within

Gets beautiful with virtues and uglier with sins

 

The body that soul wears on every rebirth

Counts on every deed that committed on earth

 

That formless eternal part of super-soul

Gets closer only through self-control

 

To attain salvation from cycle of flesh and blood

soul be pious enough to rest in lotus feet of God.

An unforgettable evening

Suddenly the power went off. She went inside and came back with a blinking candle. Her face glowed in dim light. Darkness accentuated her beauty and I kept looking on, unaware of world around me.

Her tiny ear rings glittered like her lively eyes.

She looked at me. Caring not to make her feel insecure, I had to look away. Window offered nothing but outlines of moonlit trees.

 I hated waft of Jasmine smell which made its way through window. The urge to propose her was even harder to resist.

“Is nt it hot in here.” she almost startled me. “And a lovely evening outside” I said with a hope to moving up to terrace.

The rooftop offered a picturesque sight. Full moon was winking me. Gush of cool breeze started blowing out of nowhere. My hand involuntarily moved to adjust her hair and tuck that behind her right ear.

She seemed pleasantly surprised. I wanted to say it now.

“ It is such an obsession. These never ending thoughts with only you in it.”

“ Worse, you scare me in dream too”

She kept noticing her feet and I carried on.

“ You are very very special” “ most wonderful girl in walk of my life till date”

“This confession will make me feel lighter though you may not want to hear.” With a deep sigh I finally said it.

“ Believe me, I love you.”

I steeled my nerves to face worst reaction.

She lifted her chin to look at my eyes again. Tears rolled down her cheeks which glistened in moon light.

The setting Sun

I gazed at a distant rain-washed Mango tree

With fond reminiscence of my pre-teen days  

The wet deserted road looked like molten Gold

and shimmered beautifully in  slanted rays

The twilight painted Sky with a tinge of Saffrons

Which gradually got sprinkled with stars

The Sun sank in in amidst two hills

Creating silhouette of a temple afar

Transcendental  blow of conch startled sleepy charm

while birds hurriedly flapped back to their nest

In between drifting clouds resembled an Unicorn

The winking Moon peeped after a long rest

With calm mind and determined heart

Took deep sigh and whispered out a prayer

                                                     

May this twilight bring back a brighter dawn

and vibe of hope, compassion, affection and care.

Maa Samleswari

I drove through sleepy lanes

To offer prayer in dead of a night

I was welcomed with stoic silence

my sweaty hands trembled with fright

I instinctively pushed the bell near gate

Got startled by it’s sound

The wafting smell of earthen lamps

Accentuated good vibes all around       

As I stepped in to the dark Garvagriha

I felt my body getting separated from soul

A moment caught me looking at Her .

And I got merged into Black Hole.

Blinding clouds of light started fading up

And Maa Samlei emerged from above,

I was euphoric and jumped delightfully

As she looked intently with motherly love.

I involuntarily danced to sound of “Mridung”  

And lifted eyelids to come back to sense

I was surrounded by people who looked concerned

And my dress got completely drenched

I felt like a new man as I got up

With my newfound faith and belief

I keep thanking Maa for every moment of joy

And She is ray of hope for profound grief.